Human Experiences

(Posted Wednesday, June 27, 2012)

Whoa what a week… it's crazy!!! This time last week I was heading to the UK for a a pit stop to celebrate my birthday with friends and family and then heading off to Spain for some filming.  I lay in bed on Friday and everything and I mean EVERYTHING had caught up with me, and I just cried and cried… I wasn't feeling well either and I ached, even my skin ached.  I knew it was tiredness but of course when you are tired everything else come on top of you.  So it all came flooding out… which was good… it's good to cry and I do frequently. 

Crying is such a release, I cried tonight in fact, and every time I cry, Charlie looks at me and comes to hug me, and asks if I'm ok… I tell him, yes, I just need to cry.  He has started to do the same, he will cry also.  We had a moment when he went to bed the other night and he felt there was a Spirit in his room and I told him it was his great grandparents and his eyes welled up and he had a moment… it was great, because he released the emotion. 

We can hold onto so much 'stuff'.  Stuff that we don't need, stuff that we don't want… and it doesn't serve us.  I know that, and I have held on to stuff for so long.   I have been working with a therapist and previously with a life coach and both have helped me see that I have held on to so much and they have helped me release it… releasing is so powerful.  I remember doing a meditation at an event and it was about releasing your issues and really connecting with your soul.  As I walked around probably 80% of the people were crying… letting go of their issues.  It was amazing to see.  I love that. 

We all need to do it, and I have found that being alone has helped and yes there are moments that I have struggled and boy have I struggled, but there are also moments where I have loved being alone and honoring who I am and what I believe in.  Then when friends come along, they have also helped me see the light and the pathway, that actually isn't as dark as I had anticipated.  I have reconnected with a few people and those people, never really left my life they just took a back seat and were watching from the side lines, waiting in the wings, so to speak.  They came back with love and support and for me that was everything.  I needed to know that I was loved. 

When you are doing this work, it can be such a lonely road, it always has, but thankfully I have always had my friends around me to support me.  Even when I was seven and my friend Sam supported me, she may have joked about it, but she was the one that supported me through it… and she is also there for me now.  I spent some valuable time with her recently when I went to the UK… it was just gorgeous to be with her, and seeing the love that she and her husband and kids have… I loved seeing it, knowing that that love was possible in so many ways. 

Even though I communicate with spirit, it's not always easy to see your own spirits, but since I have been back I shared my bed with three people (in spirit BTW) My grandparents and my friend Elaine… they came to visit me on the night I arrived home.  Spirit will always lead me on the direction that I need to be on… I know that I am to educate others, whether that is to teach about Mediumship or Psychic practices or to tell people about what happens when we die… but I know that I am here to educate. I love it.  So I am teaching so much more and actually teaching an Advanced Psychic Course in a few months where I will be bringing those psychics that are certified by me, to Soul Connections. 

So it's been an incredible journey and a journey of love and embracing my self… I have discovered so much… so much about myself, what I like and what I love… I don't think there is much I don't like and if I do, I have changed that… It's about embracing who we are, what we are and the journey that we are on.  I have had to embrace it all.  

And I embrace the fact that I love my work, I love how I love, and who I love… I love my family and friends and I honor those experiences that have moulded me into who I am now… 

You have to remember that.  Honor everything because if it wasn't for certain experiences in life you would not be where you are now on the pathway that you are walking down and learning the lessons that you are supposed to learn… it's not always easy but it's an amazing journey so enjoy it.  My therapist called them human experiences… and we all have them.  We may not like them but they are there for us to learn. 

I have also had some moments recently that I am going to discuss on my radio show, and July sees the month of Spiritual Discrimination.  I am going to push the boundary and really get into topics that people shy away from.  There have been instances that I have seen discrimination from 'Spiritual' people and we are going to be talking about that… I think it's time to really open up and share things.  So tune in on Wednesday at 3pm (PST) to hear more about my story and other peoples who are leading spiritual lives but have been discriminated against!! 

Love to you all and remember to love yourself and others around you, and know that you are always loved from Spirit but find love within your own heart for yourself

Much love

xx

Unconditional birthday love

(posted Wednesday, June 20, 2012)

Wow what a day… 

Firstly I want to thank everyone for their wonderful wishes of love, it's incredible how people just want you to have the best day when it's your birthday. 

It's been quite an eye opener, I have to say… people who I least expected reached out and wished me happy birthday and those who I expected or maybe wanted didn't… but as I have said before we have expectations and it's our own expectations that disappoint us, and I suppose I was only coming from how I would have acted when in reality I shouldn't I should have seen it from others.  But you live and learn and I "see true colors shining through" in the words of Cyndi Lauper. 

Having said that it's been powerful… a massive shift.  I haven't opened a gift, except of course for Charlie's… but I haven't done anything like that because it was about embracing me… and I did just that. I embraced and was embraced.  I will now tell you what I was doing, and the reason why I didn't say everything last night when I blogged was because this was about me, and i wanted it to be sacred… and it was and continues to be.  I woke up to so many messages of love and support that it was overwhelming and then some friends of mine all started to group message and it started the day off to a fun beginning… 

What was interesting is that on the way back from Vegas I received an email about an Indian Woman by the name of Amma who was in LA and she was giving her ceremony tonight.  She is known for her hugs.  Sunday night, I was not in the right frame of mind to open the email as I could see by the subject what it was, but then Monday came along and I did… and I sat there crying… it was what I needed.  I was supposed to go out with my friend, but she had some issues with her house, but it was my fault because I kept it quiet that it was my birthday and she verbally slapped me only a few hours ago… haha… but it all worked out perfectly. 

I went along to the Hilton and I was part of the beautiful world peace ceremony and honoring.  It was incredible.  In front of a few thousand Amma sat telling a story about enlightenment and what you have to do to open your heart and soul to it.  Everyone listened to her in awe, even though most people didn't understand what she was saying, but when it was translated it was actually a funny story… I love her humor.  I had heard about her before by a few people… I couldn't believe the amount of people that were there, and they were all just there to get their Darshan… their hug!  

The meditation was powerful and I was transported to a higher frequency and vibration it was incredible… I had been crying all day anyway in anticipation of this moment.  When I shared with a few people my plans for the day, I couldn't email or speak about it without crying… I knew it was going to be emotional and enlightening… and it was. 

But what was overwhelming and astonishing was the love… the love that you felt in the room, love for others… strangers… They acted in love, in compassion, everything thing that they did was in their hearts.  I was in the assisted Darshan line because I'm on crutches (after an rather nasty fall in Vegas - I wish I could say it was done in Vegas style too but it wasn't… sorry to disappoint you - very boring).  I was helped along the line by this lady who again was just pure love.  You could see the understanding, the compassion for everyone in there.  People were smiling and warm.  Even while we were waiting for our tokens for our hugs, we were placed in cramped spaces and people just smiled and chatted to each other… No one complained. 

With anticipation I started my journey down the Darshan line. Now getting up and down from a chair with a crutch and badly bruised ribs is not the easiest thing, but what I noticed is that I didn't have any pain the whole time I was there… from 2pm that day. I started to feel the twinge as I was getting up and down like a yoyo in that line but the wonderful lady who gave me a hand really helped.  I took some photos of people who meant something to me, with me so that they too could be blessed… and I kept them in my pocket. I wanted to share the blessing with those who I cared about. 

I started to get closer and closer… and I could feel emotion coming… "Breathe lisa, breathe" is what I kept saying to myself and I focused on what I was there for… that was for enrichment, enlightenment, for me to see the truth and the truth to be shown to me… for me to open myself up to a journey that will change so many peoples lives, unconditionally. That was it… I was there!

Standing right in front of Amma… I didn't know what to do… they sat me on a chair because i couldn't get on the floor and she just looked me in the eyes… with so much love… My head was rested against her chest as she cradled my head and almost rocked me and she repeated this blessing over and over again.  I had timed how long each person had got at one point so that I could gauge how long it would take her to get through all those people. But for me… it seemed longer… I cried like a baby… I held her, she held me.  It was like she felt my pain, my loss, my love, my everything… it was like she understood.  I could feel the unconditional love that was within her every cell… 

I just allowed the tears to flow… knowing that I needed this… knowing that THIS WAS LOVE… no conditions, no upsets, just an action of pure love. Amazing… 

As the embrace finished, she looked me deep in the eyes and it was like a knowing swept over me… and that was it… I was given a chocolate and a petal… and I was asked to sit on the stage with her and the other people for a while.  

WOW… it was like my life running front of me, the things that I knew I had to face, the situations that I had to deal with… and the life that I had been leading but with so much more depth… a life of authenticity and compassion and love.  

I, of course bought some reminders of my experience, and with a badly swollen foot and a bag full of goodies I headed home… while waiting for my car, people had been emailing me wishes of love again, and I cried all the way home… because of my expectations in some people and I knew that I had created that disappointment in me… I cried because I could feel the love of strangers who were just pure love… It was amazing. 

Then I read an email from a client and I flicked through some of the other emails that they had sent because I had recommend this evening to them, and it was through reading their emails that I felt that I was on the pathway… the pathway that I needed to be on.  And the words that really meant something were: 

You gave me the spiritual tools that I couldn't find. 

I really do believe that you gave me the healing that my soul needed.

Sometimes we loose value in ourselves and faith in what we do… and these were just the words I needed to hear. So here I am… sitting here quietly in my home, Charlie sleeping soundly,  Max lying next to me, and Lucy on the floor, my foot with a bag of peas on it…(yes that is all they are good for) writing my feelings of the day out here.  Knowing that I am avoiding the washing that I have to do, that can wait until tomorrow… but MUST be done! I haven't even opened the bottle of wine that is lying here saying please drink me… hehe. But Thursday night I will be totally embraced by friends who love me, for me… I will be wrapped with so much love that I know I will cry again and I know that love is unconditional… totally and utterly free unconditional love.  And I know that love, because I'm a mother, it's how I love. I think sometimes you only experience it when you are a parent, because I didn't experience it before… but then again I could have been too young… I was only 26 when I had Charlie. But his love taught me about love… and tonight did too… I see that I can give and receive unconditional love and I do… freely. 

For me it was about receiving… I give so many hugs out at shows, they call them the 'Lisa hug' but tonight I was on the receiving end of the hug… it was amazing to feel it… 

I just want to share this song with you, that really has helped me over the last few months and certainly when I was at my lowest of lows recently… 

Thank you for your love and Birthday wishes, I am so blessed to be able to share my day with you. 

With love always

Lisa xx